wheee!

ah, sweet benevolence, you are a fickle lover, but such an incredible one that i am constantly seduced anew into imagining this is my reality.
(i shall not speak of the provocation.)
i walked around through the frantic throngs of last-minute consumers, feeling quite at ease. i love aimless days of selfish strolling. sampled truffle sauce and fudge at the market. truffles... they get in your soul, much like saffron or fenugreek- initially pleasant, then a bit overbearing. played with toys in pioneer square. read a twinkie cookbook at elliott bay. smelled fancy candles at the pseudo-provence shop run by the art garfunkel doppelganger. (best candle smells of late: tomato, mahogany and lettuce- not all together. and for the record, since i'm already babbling, i am not a candle person per se. cheap votive candles are sufficient, if anything. but i need to smell and touch everything. security guards must hate me.)
lovely and wonderful things of the past week:
-the message on my phone: "it's the weekend before christmas. are you feeling it?" spoken very sarcastically.
-toasted crumpets in my new toaster
-"things put on cats" calendar
-sexual innuendo magnetic poetry
-being able to talk to someone about nilla wafers, buck owens, shooting stars and sony boom boxes, in practically the same sentence
-realizing that the theme song of the week is actually "whenever you find it" by trey anastasio (wherever?), who was arrested for DUI near the vermont border a few days ago, possibly at the exact same moment i was listening to his cd
-hearing 'what condition my condition is in' and turning it up VERY LOUDLY
-purring cats and the sound of rain as i lay in bed
-coconut tea
-chocolate tea
these are the flaky, silly things, but mush them up and a glob of goodness may well emerge, or at least provide mortar for the shittier chunks.
this is a good place to be.